It's spring break and I'm super excited.

Tonight I'm going to WI to see one of my best friends that I haven't seen in years. I need the break. It'll be good to get away from everything for a while, away from all the junk that bogs me down and to clear my mind. Thanks to Rachel for driving me there. She's pretty awesome for doing that.

I'm kinda scared because I've never gone on a long trip before, and never really left the state. I went to KY twice. Once for a funeral and once to visit family but that was about four years ago.

We're leaving around 9-10 tonight probably and getting there really early Sunday morning.

I'm nervous about leaving certain things behind but I'm nobody's caretaker and I can't hold myself responsible for another's actions. I need to do something for myself for once. I need to do this.

I'll try to post pictures when I get back. If I remember. I'm not too big into Xanga anymore but we'll see what happens. I'll post at least one or two.

 -EDIT-

Nevermind. I didn't go to WI. I went to Missouri instead because an extra person came along on the trip that wasn't expected and Chuck's roommate wasn't okay with it.

We went to see Rachel's friend in MO instead. It was an okay time. Some parts I had fun but overall...this wasn't the break I needed. I'm not too happy about it actually. I had a lot of hopes for the trip and I thought that maybe since I was in St. Louis I'd get to see my uncle..but nope. Guess not. It was too much of an inconvenience apparently. I don't want to sound like a bitch and I need to discuss this with Rachel but I just feel like it wasn't MY trip. I feel sort of used. I wanted to be gone for a few days and I was only gone for one. I was so close to doing something that I have wanted to do for a long time and it didnt happen so I'm pretty upset.

Anyway...I'm going to go. I'll see ya later. I hope everyone else has a nice break.

Meh.

I have my orientation today at Steak n Shake. I'm pretty excited. I'm nervous about how I'll get to work every time but hopefully I figure something out.

Things in my life are a little crazy again. I've been telling my mom a lot about what's been up in my life for the past five or so months since I've moved out. In some ways it's helping our relationship and in some ways we're arguing more but that's all a part of life I guess.

I'm trying to get my life back together and standing up for myself, which is nice. I think if I can manage it, I may leave for Wisconsin over spring break to visit one of my best friends. He moved away about six years ago and I haven't seen him since. I need to get away from some of the junk around here and clear my head. I hope I can arrange it. The few days away will be good for me.

After a recent occurance though I'm not sure if I can swing it. I probably can but we'll see. My parents are a little iffy with me lately as far as trust goes but that's alright. Things are turning out to be okay.

It's hard to let go of a friendship, even if it's a short break. I'm finding that I need to take that break and that's what I'm trying to do. It hurts a lot, but it hurts more seeing what's going on in this individual's life. I need a mental health break. Hence the trip to Wisconsin to see Chuck.

Chuck = awesome. He's like my big brother and I'm super excited about possibly seeing him.

Anyway, I need to get to work at the library for a couple hours before I head out to Steak n Shake. Wish me luck!

Welcome to Steak n Shake! My name is Angela and I'll be your server this evening!

Yeah. I have another job. As a server at Steak n Shake.

I'm pretty excited about it just because I'd love to meet new people and I'm a huge people person anyway so it should be super.

If anyone could give me rides to work every now and then though I'd appreciate it and I'd definitely pay for gas. Until I get a car anyway, that's partially why I need the second job so I can have a car and won't need rides anymore.

If anyone could help I'd appreciate it. I'd most likely work second shift. I'll let you guys know next week when I get my schedule.

I'm still in a really good mood. I'm not sure why. but today is a good day.

I'm learning to accept things that I can't change and just trying to enjoy things as they go without worrying about so much. It's working so far.

I used to worry about what certain friends did and I still do...but I don't let it rule my life. My life is not their life and I was letting them intertwine and it was causing me problems. But now I'm doing pretty decently. I'm still struggling but not nearly as bad as I used to be.

Oh! Exciting girly news...

I went shopping on Tuesday and I was able to buy pants that are like 2-3 sizes smaller than the last size I bought, and even those are a little large on me. Haha. I got excited about that at the mall.

My confidence is building and I feel like I'm getting a handle on life.

Oh, I need a second job. Preferably as a server so I could put my tips directly into my savings account to help build up my finances again.

I applied to 4-5 places.

Does anyone know of places that are hiring? let me know!